Mid-Semester Burn Out

Sometimes I wonder if I'm supposed to be in college.
I usually wonder this:
When I'm doing something I love that is not school related (such as missions)
When I'm in a particulary boring class/class that has nothing to do with my life (Speech)
When I'm having roommate issues
And toward the end of each semester, especially Spring

So right now, I'm wondering if I'm supposed to be in college.

I want to go into full time missions. There's a really good chance that I'll be moving to Trinidad sometime in the next 5 years. Why not just do it now?
I don't technically need a degree to do what I want to do.

Here's why I'm not dropping out:
There's a part of me, that loves learning. It's the nerdy part of me, and it's bigger than I usually let on.
I'm not here to get a degree so I can make money, and I'm not jaded enough *yet* to think that I'm wasting my time getting an education.
It's preventing me from having to "grow up".
I want to become a therapist because I think that I can help people better if I have training. Especially people, and especially children, in Trinidad who wouldn't have access to a trained therapist.
I'm a competative person, and at this point I'm competing against myself to see if I can do it.

So that's it.

7 weeks until summer.
I can make it.

I'm 20 yo.

I'm 20 today. Weird.
I will never ever be a teenager ever again.
I can't blame my imaturity on that anymore... Oh well, I'll find something to blame it on. :)

I hope I get closer to Jesus while I'm 20.

Happy Birthday

Yesterday would have been Lance's 19th birthday.

Happy Birthday, buddy.
I miss you and I love you.

I'm kind of jealous that you're with Jesus right now. :)

Oh, College

It's currently 6:21 am and I am not asleep. And I have not been asleep tonight. I'm pulling a good ol' all nighter. Why? you might ask. You are probably thinking, "She must have a big test or a paper or something legit." Well, no. No, I don't. I'm sitting in the G5 lobby with Diana and she is working on legit stuff (a paper and 2 tests) and I'm not working on anything... I'm blogging. I finished the paper that I have due tomorrow... oh wait... today 3 1/2 hours ago and then decided I didn't feel like going to bed. Diana is leaving for Ireland on Wednesday and I told her I'd give her letters for every day she was there and I still had 5 to write (now I'm down to 2) so I decided to stay up with her and work on those. I just think that pulling all nighters is something you should do every once in a while when you're at college. And honestly, my semester isn't super challenging and I don't think I'm going to have a legit reason to pull one. And I haven't pulled one since 2nd semester freshman year. So it's just time.
So Diana's new favorite word is "totes", an abbreviation for totally for the layman. It's a great word. It's just so goofy and great. "You totes suck!" Me, Meg, and Diana were crazy tonight. crazy. I love those girls so much!!